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Sleepless Night

Written by Margriet de Moor • Translated by David Doherty

Published May 07, 2019 | ISBN 9781487005283
FICTION / Literary

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120 pages | 8 in × 5.25 in
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About this book

Sleepless Night

Margriet de Moor • David Doherty

A woman gets up in the middle of a wintry night and starts baking a Bundt cake while her lover sleeps upstairs. When it’s time for her to take the cake out of the oven, we have read a story of romance and death. The narrator of this novel was widowed years ago and is trying to find new passion. But the memory of her deceased husband and a shameful incident still holds her in its grasp. Why did he do it?

Margriet de Moor, the grande dame of Dutch literature, tells a gripping love story about endings and demise, rage and jealousy, knowledge and ambiguity — and the possibility of new beginnings.


It’s another of those nights. A night to live through, without sleep.

For years now, I have been in the habit of getting up. As a novice, this was something I did not do. I stayed under the covers, flinging myself from one side of the bed to the other, and listened for the striking of the clock. Odd, when you think about it. All you want is to slip away, into the countless hours, the immense space where the ticking of time only occurs by way of a joke, but instead you lie there muttering, “One . . . two . . . three already, damn it!” And by an easterly wind, you hear your sentence confirmed seconds later by a faint clang from the village steeple. More chime than church bell. I would often listen to the trains, too. And it struck me that while all of creation lay still at this hour, these nocturnal transports rolled on, uninterrupted. In resignation or in panic, I would feel the wheels rumble even before I heard them, the vibration intensifying as it burrowed through fields and ditches to latch onto the dresser mirror, which would begin to rattle unbearably. What was it that had to be carried with such stealth across the silent country?

What I do now is get up and make my way barefoot down the unlit stairs. Anatole, my mongrel German shepherd, hears me coming and knows what to expect. By the time I step into the kitchen and switch on the light, the dog has heaved himself up and is stretching his stiff legs. I take out the flour, the eggs, the hand mixer, two bowls — one big, one small — and begin without hesitation. I never have to think what to make. I just know. Shortbread cookies. Apple cake. Breton ham pie.

I am grateful to my husband for installing the oven at eye level when he equipped the kitchen. My eye level. Just as he chivalrously made the kitchen counter to suit my height and not his, which — as I came to learn — was six feet four and a half.

When it is time to slide the cake pan or baking tray into the preheated oven, I set the kitchen timer. This is essential. Once I have entered the dark living room in the company of Anatole, I lose all sense of temperature, aroma, and the time needed for a perfect golden-brown crust. From a corner of the room, I hear the dog sink to the floor with a smack and I begin to walk.

I am grateful to my husband for this soft wooden floor, laid with his own two hands. I know that he salvaged these planks of oak from a scrapyard. I even know that the wood originally came from the Heide Hotel, an old hunting lodge. I walk a floor for which a tidy sum was once paid. As he worked away in the living room — I can still hear the short, intense blasts of hammering — I was running an angled paintbrush along the frame of the door that leads down to the cellar. I remember how pleased I was with the color, a grayish green that even now, almost fifteen years later, still seems just right. I recall the stiffness in my fingers when the paint that had dripped down the side of the brush began to dry. I didn’t have much space to work in. I see very clearly that the sweep of my clumsy efforts was hemmed in by a pile of secondhand chairs and boxes crammed with wedding gifts. While the Chinese bowls, the tablecloth embroidered with irises, the cocktail shaker, and goodness knows what else are items I still possess and see almost every day, Ton, my young husband, has vanished without a trace. The look on his face. The remarks he made from the living room.

“Clear varnish might be best after all.”

“Tea? Or a beer?”

“You’ll never guess who I ran into this morning.”

“Over halfway done and moving along.”

“Sure. But it’s not what you’re thinking.”

Along those lines. Accompanied perhaps by a whistled tune or a burst of laughter. I can stick my fingers in my ears and bring the remarks to mind. But they are words without intonation, spoken with a mouthful of sand. As he went about this task, I neglected to notice my husband.

About the Author

Margriet de Moor

Born in the Netherlands in 1941, MARGRIET DE MOOR had a career as a classical singer before becoming an author with the Gouden Ezelsoor–winning short story collection Seen from Behind. She won the AKO Literature Prize for her first novel, First Gray, Then White, Then Blue. Her novels have been translated into twenty-four languages. De Moor lives in the Netherlands.

David Doherty

Awards and Praise


A Library Journal Best Book of 2019

“Quiet, unrushed, yet deeply penetrating prose . . . An extraordinary accomplishment.” — Library Journal

“The mystery . . . seems to deepen with every clue. Sleepless Night is a novel for the floating world we live in now, a novel that ends endings, happy or otherwise.” — Woven Tale Press

“Sleepless Night is told through a successful framing device: our nameless protagonist often finds herself troubled into restless insomnia and so, when this occurs, she pops into the kitchen and spends the rest of the dark night baking . . . What this affecting story leaves us with, upon its closure, is the nervous unease that life doesn’t care about us.” — Books and Bao

“Short, abrupt, and thought-provoking.” — I’ve Read This

“A taut narrative. Tense and concise.” — Buried in Print

“This sort of small (but abyss-deep) tale depends very much on the telling, and de Moor does a very fine job . . . Sleepless Night is both melancholy and hopeful (but nowhere near cloyingly so), and doesn't force too many answers; love and loss remain mysteries — but ultimately quite satisfyingly so.” — Complete Review

“The questions of love, marriage, and mortality come to life in Margriet de Moor’s poignant novel Sleepless Night . . . Clever foreshadowing and ingeniously placed clues create suspense . . . Delivers insightful ruminations on marriage, love, love lost, and the unsolved mysteries lurking underneath the surface of everyday lives . . . Sleepless Night is a meditative novel where the seemingly mundane reveals itself to be the harbinger of profound insights.” — Foreword Reviews

“Compact, haunting, and lovely . . . it is unhurried and assured; no word is wasted . . . In both its rich and unapologetic descriptions of domesticity and frank attitude toward sex . . . the book is a treatise on one individual’s womanhood.” — Kirkus Reviews

“This novel is a subtle, enigmatic, and beautiful elegy to a husband and marriage that ends in tragedy. De Moor’s book is sensual and spare, whether she’s writing about love, a walk in an ice forest, or baking a cake in the middle of the night. There are layers of meaning here, which with adroit subtlety de Moor lets the reader puzzle out for themselves.” — Claire Fuller, author of Swimming Lessons and Bitter Orange

“Fluid and musical . . . this hypnotic portrayal of an amorous and sensual resurrection gracefully tells of regret over failed encounters and the fragile hope of new beginnings.” — Le Monde

“The charm of Margriet de Moor’s book is due to a combination of sensuality and reflection, as well as a musical language of great beauty that explores the meanderings of the human soul with great clarity.” — Le Figaro

“Carefully narrated, cleverly constructed, and fascinating in its psychological finesse.” — Frankfurter Rundschau

“De Moor’s novel is encased in calm, its surfaces appearing to be safe — until they suddenly crack open like thin ice beneath our feet. A beautiful, mysterious, and shocking book.” — Nancy E. Kline, author of The Faithful and Lightning: The Poetry of René Char


“Musical . . . [De Moor’s] prose is shot through with recurring leitmotifs and song; and her sensitivity to sound and tempo permeates her new novel.” — New York Times Book Review

“A moving dramatization of a historical catastrophe which bears disturbing resemblances to recent global occurrences . . . It’s hard to resist using the word ‘symphonic’ to describe this exquisitely composed, piercingly moving story. De Moor continues to scale increasingly impressive heights.” — Kirkus Reviews